Just learn a story and share with you.
One guy died and unfortunately he go to hell. The devil guided him to tour the hell. They went to one room, he saw full of urgly and dirty staff. So he asked the devil:" oh my god, what are they?" Devil answerd:"these are the things that stop people achieve their dreams in the world." The guy went into the room and explore, he found the most urgly staff, which made he feel faint. He asked again:" what's this?" The devil answerd:"that's discouragment."
A lot of people here want to comfort you and help you. But it may not a good idea to follow, because people here do have so much marriage experience. I suggest you look for marriage counseller to help.
And be tough.