I am also trying so hard to be happy. I pretend to be happy in font of all the friends. Still, cry everyday, more than one time and drink everyday. I tried to make myself busy and tried to be happy. Still, it's so hard. Everyone keeps asking me why I won't go home, like I am so cold-blooded. Hehe, I do not want my family seeing me cry and make them worry about me.I dreamed them everyday but can not go home. cry from morning to evening, even in the dreams... whenever someone says he likes me, it makes me feel more painful.
Sorry, I am supposed to help u, but can't control myself. Martini Rosso plus Chinese White wine, cheers, baby.