我把自己灌醉，只为了哭一场坐在阳台上，一口又一口。我只想让自己醉一场，能够好好的哭一场。
我特想回家，特想家；可是我不敢回家，我已经让爸爸妈妈看见过我伤心欲绝的样子，我不想让他们再看见一次。爸爸送我到机场的时候说，你一定要好好的，下次看见你的时候，我希望你能够开开心心的，能够胖起来。
半年了，每次自己要哭的时候，每次自己要顶不住的时候，我就对自己说，等这个学期所有的考试都结束了，我就可以好好的醉一场了，可以好好的哭一场了。我压抑了半年，把所有的泪水都留在了今天晚上。我知道今天我不该喝酒，可是我还是买了酒回来，我真地想醉一场，想好好的哭一场。
半年了，我不知道自己到底有没有忘记他，也不知道自己到底好了没有，我甚至都怀疑过自己得了什么病，甚至想看心理医生。我现在完全不敢和妈妈提感情，不敢和妈妈提到他，每次提到他，妈妈都特自责，她都说当初她就应该坚持一下，这样我就不会这么伤心了。
胡言乱语了这么多，我都快不知道自己要说什么了，借着醉意，就让自己好好的哭一场吧。宝贝，我们只哭这一场，我们只伤心这一晚上。
Baby, Be happy.
I am also trying so hard to be happy. I pretend to be happy in font of all the friends. Still, cry everyday, more than one time and drink everyday. I tried to make myself busy and tried to be happy. Still, it's so hard. Everyone keeps asking me why I won't go home, like I am so cold-blooded. Hehe, I do not want my family seeing me cry and make them worry about me.I dreamed them everyday but can not go home. cry from morning to evening, even in the dreams... whenever someone says he likes me, it makes me feel more painful.
Sorry, I am supposed to help u, but can't control myself. Martini Rosso plus Chinese White wine, cheers, baby.
Sorry, I am supposed to help u, but can't control myself. Martini Rosso plus Chinese White wine, cheers, baby.
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