终于和他说再见了整整三个月。
只有第一个礼拜的时候，是那么开心。之后的每一天都形同煎熬。只是，因为不舍得，因为那最开始的快乐太过印象深刻，因为他那么切合我理想中的男子，因为他温柔的声音和温暖的手，于是，一直一直不愿放弃。
那样用力的去争取，换来一次又一次“对不起，i am not ready".
终于，累了。在哭了很多很多次之后，再死心了又被他的message唤起一丝希望然后又周而复始之后，我终于觉得累了。
对他说：我要从你的生命里消失了。永远的。像一颗小石头被扔回大海，你再也找不到我了。
不知道未来会有多痛。也不知道自己是不是做对了。只是，此刻，终于有点轻松的感觉。
this is for you, dear :)
With Every Goodbye
--Author Unknown
After a while, you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats,
With the grace of a woman,
not the grief of a child,
And learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
And futures have a way of falling down mid-flight.
And after a while, you learn
that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And learn that you really can endure,
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.
And you learn
and learn.
With every goodbye
you learn.
--Author Unknown
After a while, you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats,
With the grace of a woman,
not the grief of a child,
And learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
And futures have a way of falling down mid-flight.
And after a while, you learn
that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And learn that you really can endure,
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.
And you learn
and learn.
With every goodbye
you learn.
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