Suddenly(overnight), I feel SO MUCH better...

The remedy for "not being a whiner" is:
(1) meet up with some REALLY GOOD friends and give them the warmest hug and laugh;
(2) chat with some REALLY GIFTED friends(those who are about to leave singapore for the most competitive Master programme in the most presti. univ. in the States---not those engaged in the crappy research phD programme),knowing that there are predecessors and everything is possible!

Seriously, I cannot believe the healing power of " being with friends" it is incredible.

p.s.: I feel lonely mainly b/c SOMETIMES i think nobody can possibly reach out to my heart ...undergraduate graduation is like a filter. People who are sagacious and ambitious are somehow filtered away. Before i could realize it, i was left out by the group and got overwhelmed by the ordinary people(it is so mean to say this)...